Over the past few days, I find myself reflecting on where I am and where I want to be….and I have to admit…my attitude sucks!
I’ve been angry, hurt, lost, alone, scared, bitter, jealous and many other things…and I feel like I have been on one big emotional roller-coaster ride. But I have a feeling this this is exactly where God wanted me to be. I believe He wanted in place where He could bring all this yuck out of me so that I could find healing and deliverance from things that have been holding me back.
I feel like poor ole Peter. He was with Jesus every day…He heard Jesus and saw all the miracles but when the push came to shove…Peter went on the roller-coaster. He denied Jesus…even though this is what Jesus said he would do! Then came anger, bitterness, hurt, humility and a whole bunch of other yuckies that made Peter realize what a stupid, hard-headed fool he had been.
Humans are fickle, hard-headed, imperfect…but God loves us anyway! And in that love He holds Jesus up in front of us as a mirror and says, “take a good long look”….and that is when we go away into our closet and weep bitterly with tears of repentance…just like Peter.
Once we come to that place…God has a lump of clay He can finally do something with…..
God bless you!!!
{reference – Luke 22}
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